Entry One
Dear Diary
Now now that was intense. Wow Dracula Count Famous has heard about me. In a strange way I am flattered. I'm only human after all and I did fall under his thrall since he had those hypno eyes. He shouldn't bother us again. I must admit that it was a serious deja vu moment when he said that exact same thing that was said in that killer dream I had.
I'm going to ask Giles to be my Watcher again since I have to know who I am and where I come from. He's the perfect person since he's Mr Knowledge. Besides I've been hunting and the things that Dracula said really got to me.
Entry Two
Dear Diary
Lately my little sis has been driving me nuts. I can't believe she invited Harmony in. She should so know better and ok I blew up but of all people she should know not to invite one of the fang gang in and it's not like I would have let her in when she was alive either so that hasn't changed any now that she's not.
I guess there was some residual annoyance from her messing with my training session. I'm really serious about this. I guess in a way I envy her since she gets to be a regular kid and I wasn't. It would be nice and at times it really gets to me when she doesn't seem to realize how good she has it. It was different with Mom since she was lonely and that Dracula was hard to resist with those hypno eyes of his.
It was a good laugh hearing about Harmony and her minions. They were quite the challenge. The challenge being not to laugh while I was staking them so no more minions for Harmony.
Well it's cool that Giles bought the magic shop. It even has a room where I can train. I'm glad that Giles is doing something instead of the whole man of leisure thing. He's around books which makes him happy and he won't have to watch Passions with Spike. Now that's a funny picture. The two of them on the couch must have been quite a thing to see.
Entry Three
Dear Diary
Now that was strange to have two Xanders. I think Riley may have been channeling Maggie wanting to study the two Xand's. I must admit that I was curious about what it would be like to be split in two like that. It didn't sound too terrible but of course there turned out to be a downside.
It would have been nice to have another me to do the slaying while the other me could play with Riley. But being split in two made one Xand super confident and the other so very not. So if Xand wasn't all split I could have been dead since Toth was after me and didn't bother the Xanders. That was such a close call with the one Xand with a gun. I'm so glad that he got out of the basement and into a pretty nice apartment. So everybody gets a twin but me.
Entry Four
Dear Diary
I guess I'm doing good in the realm of academics since Will was really impressed with me. Of course she'll always be the major brain but it's nice to get a thumbs up. I just love the training area Giles set up for me. I was a little worried about his getting the shop because of the high death rate but I think it's been really good for him.
Wow I'm turning into a school girl which isn't so terrible but I think I may hit brain overload if I continue at this pace. I'm leaving out the whole fun thing which is so very vital.
Entry Five
Dear Diary
That was such a close call. How typical that Spike nearly messed things up. I'm just relieved that he's still chips ahoy in his brain. It's a good thing that Harmony's so dumb since she thought the penny was his chip. She gets the award for dumb blonde of the century. I'm just glad that I got Riley to the doctor so he could get fixed. I've been so worried about him lately.
Not that I'd admit it to her but that wasn't such a bad idea that Dawn had. I'm just glad that Mom wasn't alone when she passed out. She may drive me nuts at times but I love her and she made sure Mom got to the hospital and she's the one that found out about Riley's condition since his heart was beating way too fast. I know he wouldn't have told me and he could have ended up dead because of it. Damn those people for experimenting on my boyfriend. I hope we figure out what's wrong with mom. The stupid doctors don't know and I'm really worried.
Entry Six
Dear Diary
I'm really worried about mom. The doctors still don't know what's wrong with her. That spell that Anya mentioned was revealing just not in the way I thought it would be. There was nothing around mom to indicate someone working the bad mojo on her. I wanted something that I could fight but this looks strictly medical which leaves me helpless to do anything about it.
I am stunned to find out that Dawn isn't really my sister but she is at the same time. I love her and I will protect her. This is so strange since all these memories are there but she wasn't. That blonde chick was really tough and she gave me one serious ass kicking.
Entry Seven
Dear Diary
I decided to move back home since mom's still sick and I want to be close to Dawn. I've decided not to tell anyone except for Giles at least for now. It would be too weird for them. That demon chick was quite a fighter and we have no clue about who she is.
I wonder what's up with Riley. He like pulled back when I told him that I didn't want the government involved. Hello they did experiments on him so it's strange that he'd suggest it. It's best to involve as few people as possible especially since we don't know what we're dealing with.
Well that was a fun glimpse into the kind of family you don't want. I was mad when I found out that Tara cast a spell that nearly got us killed but I totally get it now so she's forgiven and no one got hurt. That poor girl was led to believe that she was a demon and that on her 20th birthday she would go all demony or whatever. Well she won't be bothered by them again.
Strange how it was Spike that revealed the truth about Tara. I never thought I'd say this but I'm glad he was around to do the punchy thing. I went to Bloomies and got that cute sweater but I did find a skirt that I think Tara will like. I don't know her that well yet but she reminds me a little of Will in the early days when she was so shy.
I'm just glad that things turned out so well. That would have broken Will's heart if Tara was forced to leave. They are such an adorable couple. It's nice that me and my bestest buds are all happily in love. A night at the Bronze is just what the doctor ordered. I need to get ready.
Entry Eight
Dear Diary
It's been one hell of a couple of days. First I get staked with my own stake which hurt like hell. It's very handy to have a boyfriend with medical knowledge. I didn't want mom to know and worry about me with her sitch. I decided to find Spike and have him tell me how he killed those two Slayers. I don't understand why I don't just dust him.
So I get home and Mom tells me that everythings ok and that she's going to the hospital and everything just went crashing down. I went outside for a cry and Spike shows up. Now that was seriously strange and oddly comforting at the same thing. Just another strange occurence in the life of Buffy.
Entry Nine
Dear Diary
That was such a close call with Dawn. Glory almost found out the truth when she made that tattletale snake monster. It did feel good to pound on it and kill it since I can't do a damn thing about my mom. I was hoping that there would be a spell or something to cure him but no such luck. I'm just glad that Glory didn't hurt anyone when she stopped by the shop.
We still have no idea what she is and this is just too much to focus on with mom sick and having to take care of Dawn on top of finding out what this bitch is. I'll probably have to tell the others about Dawn soon since they need and deserve to know. I'm glad that Dawn was finally able to sleep. I should probably too but maybe I'll take a bubble bath first and try to relax.
It sounds like this shadow thing was found early so the doctor should be able to fix her up as good as new. I just don't like this helpless feeling and not being able to do anything. Calgon take me away.
Entry Ten
Dear Diary
I am so relieved that mom's going to be all right. That is such a load off. I thought I was going to lose it big time. It was scary to see mom acting all crazy. She knows the truth about Dawn and feels the way I do. The number one priority is to protect her and to figure out who Glory is.
Tonight me and Riley are going to have a romantic night so Dawn is spending the night with Xand and Anya. I may even attempt to do some studying before Riley comes over. I got some wigs to bring to Mom tomorrow. I plan on spending the whole day with her. I'm glad Riley's bring food since I'm not in the mood to cook and I don't think we have anything edible lying around.
Entry Eleven
Dear Diary
Well it's over between me and Riley. He took off in the helicopter with the military. Apparently he didn't hear me yelling at him unless he pretended not to. I have the worst luck with the weaker sex. I'm just going to focus on Mom and protecting Dawn.
It's not like I have a social life and it certainly isn't the first or the last well it could be the last since I am thinking about swearing off men. I could become a nun but I'm not sure I'd like to wear a habit thingie. I need to focus on things that I can control and stop thinking about him.
I was such an idiot for not seeing what was going on. He might even come back and we'll have a chance to work things out. The bugs may drive him back since he is going to the jungle full of all kinds of nasty critters well a different kind of nasty critter.
Entry Twelve
Dear Diary
I did run into a nun in the midst of slaying. She was nice and let me try on her whimple. I didn't even know it was called a whimple. So I learned something and I so don't want to do the nun thing. I like clothes way too much and I think it would be tricky to patrol in a nun outfit. I'd have unlimited access to holy water.
I'm just glad that I have school which is something else to focus on so I keep my mind off other stuff. It was nice to see mom in actual clothes instead of that robe. We set it on fire in the backyard and went shopping. Going to the mall is always a good thing and there was a sale which is even better.
Entry Thirteen
Dear Diary
A bad day turned even worse. I won't be speaking up in that class again. I tried to bring up a different viewpoint on the whole Rasputin thing and the teacher mocked me. Hello open your mind we're living on a Hellmouth here! Behold the wonder of closeminded people. It's not impossible for Rasputin to be a vampire.
I so wanted to rewind walking into the magic shop where I found the Council lying in wait. So I'm stuck jumping through hoops since they are threatening Giles if I don't play along. I really don't like those guys.
They come in and close the shop and threaten to deport Giles. I really wanted to hit that Travers guy but I didn't since he's pretty old. I wonder if they'll even help. It's not like they can do anything by themselves. They are so damn annoying and I so don't need this right now.
Entry Fourteen
Dear Diary
Now that was scary. I'm glad I heal fast since it's not fun being hit with a crossbow bolt. I guess that's why vampires get grumpy. We all sat down and talked. I found out that Dawn heard what I said and wigged before she heard everything that I said. It'll take time since this is a lot to take in but I'm pretty sure that she knows that she's loved and part of the family no matter how she got here.
That was pretty cool how Will teleported the Hell Bitch. Well at least the annoying brigade are gone and I got the answers without going through more of there stupid tests so we're dealing with a God which is mind boggling.
Entry Fifteen
Dear Diary
I'm so glad for Cliff Notes since I didn't get a chance to read The Hunchback. I'll have Will tell me what it's about so I have a chance at least a D. I'm hoping the Cliff Notes helps. I wonder who this guy Cliff is anyway. I
t's a short book but I just haven't been able to focus with everything that's going on. Dawn has a crush on Spike! EWWW! And double EEEWW to have my little sister inform me that Spike's in love with me which is something no one ever wants to hear. That is just too disturbing for words.
Why couldn't that whole conversation have been a bizarro dream but now I was awake and I don't want to even think about it. In the morning before class I'll check out the train slaughter. At least it isn't Glory. I wonder where my blue sweater is.
Entry Sixteen
Dear Diary
I can't believe that Mom is really gone. I've been thinking that in order for me to be a good Slayer I have to lose my humanity. I wasn't really there for Riley not like I should have been. No wonder he left. This Quest thingie that Giles had me go on was confusing. It was nice to hear that I'm full of love but that thing about death being my gift made no sense at all. So the first part is good at least.
I am so disgusted by Spike and his robot. It wasn't even a good copy. I can't believe it fooled everyone else. He didn't get a dusty ending since he did protect Dawn. But he doesn't get that thing back. Wow I was really stunned that Spike actually cares about me for real. That was utterly amazing. I never thought I'd feel gratitude to one of the fang gang other than Angel. I still don't know what I'm going to do about Glory. I bet the other Slayers never had to deal with a Hell God. Gee I guess I'm a special one.
Entry Seventeen
Dear Diary
I had to drop all of my classes. I need to focus on taking care of Dawn right now. That has to be my one and only priority and I couldn't concentrate on school right now and besides I could always go back next semester or something. If I'm able to take down that Hell Bitch I will definetely go back.
I really wish Mom was around since I need her so much right now. I'm so not cut out to be a real grownup and being like a mom to Dawn. I love her but it's hard. I wonder what this conference is about. Well I'll find out later when I go see her principal. At least this one isn't a nasty little troll.
Entry Eighteen
Dear Diary
Well this isn't good at all. Everyone is totally miserable and guilt is running rampant. It's like a guiltfest. Poor Dawn feels responsible for everything bad that has happened and Will feels guilty as do I. Why is Spike always Mr Insightful when it comes to matters of the heart.
I shouldn't have left Will alone even though she seemed to be calmed down. I was thinking logically when I should have been thinking with my heart. Of course you'd go after someone that hurt someone you love. Will wanted to be alone after what happened and I'm sure that this time she won't go after Glory again.
She did do some damage which is more than I've been able to do. I think she'll be key in the showedown and hopefully she'll find a way to get Tara back. But I don't know if I can do it and I wonder if I should do anything at all. I just don't know anymore. It might be easier to just let Dawn go. I'd mourn and then go on. I know that I won't do that but I thought about it at the magic shop and for just one split second I totally gave up.