Entry One

Dear Diary

Well Angel is still with the monks and working through his grief. I hope he comes back soon since I really miss him. He needed to be away I totally get that. It stung a bit when I saw my commercial with that other girl saying my lines. He should be blacklisted or whatever since he was a wretched troll and a sorry excuse for a producer.

So we're back and I'm no longer a princess although I did manage to keep one tiara. I miss Pylea and Groo and those eyes of his and his muscles. Fred is still staying in her room except for peeking her head out every so often. Maybe when Angel gets back he'll help with her getting out into the world. She's just traded one cave for another except we give her tacos and she isn't a slave.

Entry Two

Dear Diary

I don't know what I'd do without Dennis. He's a real godsend. These visions are killing me and the doctor says that it's getting worse. I'm taking twice the amount of medication to take the edge off and feel somewhat human.

Angel came back and he had gifts. He gave me a beautiful necklace. He'll probably never get over her death since she was the love of his love but he seems to be coping. I couldn't begin to imagine what he's going through. He is totally blaming himself although it's totally not his fault. I should talk to him since I don't like seeing him suffer more than he has to.

Entry Three

Dear Diary

Well I think my talk with Angel went pretty well. I'm so glad that we finally found the Queen nester. They are so nasty and fighting evil helps one feel better. It's kind of comforting I suppose. That James was one twisted guy. Poor Fred finally comes out of her room and we're downstairs trying to kill the impervious vamp. Thank God it was a temporary thing.

 Now we need to focus on Fred and her getting out. He needs to talk to her so I'll probably have to talk to him and then I'll probably end up talking to her. She can't stay cooped up forever since she needs to get on with her life.

The first step is to have her come downstairs and join us and take baby steps from there. I don't get the girl although I'm not sure how I'd be after spending five years in a cave with no one around but myself. I might be a bit odd myself.

Entry Four

Dear Diary

That was so amazing what Angel did. I am so grateful but I am a bit worried. Sure I'm glad that my next vision will just give me a searing migraine instead of ripping me apart but I do wonder about that guy that Angel freed from Hell. That just scared me the whole being flayed and all those horrors that popped up on me. It's one thing for it to be in my head but this was beyond surround sound. I kept checking to make sure that all those boils and stuff were gone. I'm glad that it wasn't some punishment for my being such a major bitch in the past. I think that I'm a much better person now.
 
We really should get a cook since Angel has a great kitchen or I should get Angel cooking again since he doesn't do that anymore.The best I can do is waffles. I wonder if there's a way to avoid the whole hacking into my head with the killer visions. They are bad enough without that added horror since they are taking their toll but it's all part of the job.

Entry Five

Dear Diary

Well I told Angel that he should talk to Fred and he wants me to do it. No big surprise there but he does have a connection with her. I don't get the girl but she's sweet. She talks to shrubs at least that's what it looked like. I can't really blame the girl since she did get sucked into a nightmare place the last time she went out.

Maybe Lorne can help her out. I'll take her to Caritas. She'll get out and maybe she'll start venturing out into the world. Besides it might be nice to have a girl to hang out with since there is a shortage of estrogen around here. She just needs to find her way back to regular life in LA.

Entry Six

Dear Diary

Well that wasn't the kind of night out that I had in mind. I figured that Fred would sing and Lorne would help and I don't know what I thought would happen but not what happened. Instead the place gets shot up and demon blood ends up on the poor girl. I wonder if she'll ever go out again but she did prove to be tough and of course she would have to be to survive five years in hell.

These things happen and she's going to have to deal if she's going to be one of the gang. Poor Lorne's club got trashed again. I wonder if he has insurance. I don't even want to know why those sisters remembered Angel so I am keeping myself blissfully ignorant even though I know.

I feel so bad since I told her she was safe with me. I'm so glad that Wes was with me so she wasn't left alone there when I had to leave. Well Fred wasn't half bad at singing although it was ironic considering what song she picked. So I'm thinking she'll be ok.

Entry Seven

Dear Diary

Once again we take a case with no paying client. Well it's a good case since guys going all melty isn't a good thing. I didn't have much luck at the gym. I must be losing my touch or maybe those guys were gay or maybe they thought Angel and I were a couple or something although I told them we weren't.
 
 Now that's a strange thought me and Angel a couple. Like that would ever happen. Well I'm going to make sure he talks to Fred since she has a major crush on him that needs to be nipped in the bud quickly. It isn't fair since she doesn't know about the whole curse thing. Anyway I think Wes likes her and I think she likes him too. Once again no date for me unless I count Dennis. I think I'll have a nice warm bath and order some Chinese food. I'm just glad that I've had a break from the visions.

Entry Eight

Dear Diary

I must admit that I'm glad that Fred's staying. I'm a bit jealous of her parents since they are such great people. I would love to have parents like that. That invention of her's was quite impressive. Well now we know what part she is since she is the inventor.
 
So she's a part of the team now so I'll get some cards with her name on them. It's always good to have another big brain around. Tomorrow we'll be painting Fred's room well I'll be charge of food and I'll just oversee the painting. Yes those shoes are on sale so now I can buy them yay. I'm so glad that Jane called about the sale and set them aside for me.

Entry Nine

Dear Diary

That's just great I get a vision and it's a week late. Gee that was so very helpful. Why couldn't I have gotten it when there was a chance to save that woman? Wes is going to look into it so we figure out what the deal is with the late vision. I hope Wes speaks up and tells Fred that he likes her. He may as well go for it since it's like impossible to find someone who can deal with the weirdness of our world. Besides she likes him I can tell.

 I've been thinking about getting a website for our little business and I just know that Fred would be perfect to set it up and maybe I could have Wes help her and maybe that would get them going. It would reach a lot more people which means more money which is always good. I've asked Angel to train me since I need to know how to fight to protect myself. I can't rely on some man to come to my rescue every time I get into trouble.

Entry Ten

Dear Diary

I knew that things would come to bite us on our asses big time. That guy Angel saved from his flamy cell was pure evil. Lilah did one good thing in killing that bastard. I was happy to do it myself but Angel stopped me.

I feel horrible about the things Billy's evil touch caused men to do. I know I'm not to blame and Angel isn't either the evil law firm is. What is their deal anyway? Fred had her own scare but the girl handled herself quite nicely. Maybe I'll get some flowers to cheer up the basement since it's dark and dank and gloomy. I'll get some fake flowers since real ones would probably die the second I walked down the stairs with them.

Entry Eleven

Dear Diary

Well I wasn't to smart with the sympathy with Darla. I guess I was reminded of my own pregnancy and how miserable it was even though it was for a short time. The fact that she's a vampire never entered my head. I have these teeth marks to remind me.

This is so strange that Angel's going to be a father. Well my fingers are crossed that the baby will take after daddy instead of mommy. I wonder if this has something to do with that prophecy that Wes screwed up a while back. We may have to kill what Darla's carrying since we aren't sure what it is or even if it's human.

Like he isn't broody enough. We'll just have to keep digging to see what's going on. It would be great if Angel could have a child since I know he'd make a great dad. Sure this is a strange situation but life is strange. Who know's what she's carrying but my fingers are crossed that it turns out good.

Maybe this won't be a bad prophecy since they can't all be bad and they can be vague or you may find many possible meanings. I was upset that he lied about Darla but I guess that wouldn't be something you would want to shout from the rooftops. So I've joined that exclusive club of girls that have been bitten and have lived to tell the tale.

Entry Twelve

Dear Diary

This is so amazing. Angel has a beautiful baby boy named Connor. I can't believe that Darla actually sacrificed herself to save her son. That had to be quite a sight. I feel so lucky to have a part in this. Sure it came with the usual evil fighting but that's nothing new.

This latest medication seems to be working better. Well it helps that I haven't had a vision in a while. So I guess I won't be giving that acceptance speech I have totally worked out since I am finally realizing that I won't ever be an actress. I'll just keep on doing what I'm doing since it's very important for us as long as I can because the doctor isn't giving me good news about my condition.

Entry Thirteen

Dear Diary

Well that was quite a birthday what with the going astral and all. I'm just glad that I'm solid again. So I guess I got a good demony part since I was all floaty during the vision I had. That's good and kinda cool although I tried and haven't been able to do it again. I know my mission in life and this is it. Plus I don't have to die now since the demon part will keep that from happening.
 
I wonder if that makes me immortal. I guess I could have asked Skip but I didn't think of it at the time. Who would have thought that the spoiled rich bitch of Sunnydale would throw away that life of fame? It just isn't as important as it was before and things weren't too great for my friends.
 
Besides it just broke my heart to see Angel suffering with the visions like that. He so needs me and I need him too and if I didn't change things back little Connor wouldn't exist and Wes would only have one arm. And I think that Fred would still be in Pylea since we never would have gone so I did the only thing I could do.

Entry Fourteen

Dear Diary

Things got a little crazy but we did earn that cash. Sure most of it is going to pay for bills and Connor's college fund but I'm hoping we can use some of it for some fun like a boat maybe. Fred still has her head which is good since that's where it belongs. Maybe I should put steel plates on my shoes since that hurt when I tried to kick one of those tin guys.

I'm having no luck with the trying to float thing. I've jumped up but it's not working. Maybe if I leap off something I'll do the floaty thing. Still no sign or a tail or horns. Now that's a good thing.

I don't mind having a bit of demon mixed in since the visions are such a breeze now and as a big bonus won't kill me like they were before. It would have been nice if I got some kind of instruction manual talking about my demony part and how to use it.

Entry Fifteen

Dear Diary

Ok so I fell asleep at the ballet. It's just not my thing. Things heated up with me and Angel which was so strange but not altogether bad. At least that poor girl doesn't have to keep dancing the same thing over and over again. Now that would really suck big time. The girl rejects the guy so the guy turns her into a puppet.

It is so great to have Groo back but that vision was really a mood killer. So he's sleeping right now. The poor guy gets deposed which sucks but he came for me which is great. I'm just not sure if the visions will pass to Groo if we get all groiny.

I don't want to lose my visionity if that's going to happen so I need to find a way around that. I'll see if Angel or Wes can find something for me. In the meantime we can avoid the shucking part and do the calm or however it's spelled. Like I know how to spell those weird words from Pylea.

Entry Sixteen

Dear Diary

I had a great time in Mexico but I really wish someone would have called me. It's just so much to process. Well I'm here now for Angel and I think I'm helping him. I made a change with my hair yet again and I really like it. I went with blonder and shorter. I thought I could use a change.

It just breaks my heart to see Angel in so much pain. He won't talk about what he did so I'll have to pull it out of him. I just can't believe that Wes took Connor like that and now he's with Holtz in some hellish place which is probably worse than death.

How does a person get over that? I even brought back gifts for the little guy which I threw out before Angel could see them. I need to find out what spell Angel did because there is always a price and it will come to collect soon.

Entry Seventeen

Dear Diary

Wow I glowed in the dark but like the floating I have no idea how I did it. There should be some kind of instructions but I got nothing. Now if only I could use my demony parts and figure out what I can do with them. I could so save on electricity and I'd never need a nightlight again. Ok I'd have to find a way to dim the light because that was way too bright.
 
Wow this is so amazing that Connor is back and boy has he grown. Not exactly a friendly return but he's back which is the important thing. Groo is such a sweetie but he's kinda acting a bit odd. I'm just glad that the blue haired chick was able to close that rip. I'm hoping that nothing else came through.
 
It just sucks that Angel was able to catch up with Connor and talk to him and not have him return to the hotel with him. I know that had to be painful to have his son back only to lose him again when he took off. I'm just worried about Connor being all alone out there but he did survive that other place so he should be fine and he takes after his dad.
 
Angel's being all stoic but this has to be eating away at him. Great Groo is back with food. He has strange tastes but he manages if I write down what I want him to get. My sweet and sexy puppy dog.

Entry Eighteen

Dear Diary

Groo is gone and I couldn't stop him. I couldn't say that I loved him. I love us but I realized that I'm not really in love with him. Why and how did this happen? I thought for sure that this was the man of my dreams. I mean he calls me Princess and left his dimension for me. I guess I never really thought about it since I was so into the fantasy of it. Could he be right about Angel?

I mean Angel's my best friend but do I love him? Well yes but am I in love with him? He must be crazy or I must be crazy since it doesn't sound totally crazy but it is. I'm gonna miss Groo. My sweet puppy dog and those eyes full of sadness as he left just rips at my heart. I hope he'll be ok.

I am so stupid. Hello I am calling him a puppy which isn't the best name since he's a person and not a puppy. But me in love with Angel? This bears a lot of thinking and I'll need to talk to Angel when I figure out what I feel. I'm not even sure of that right now. Oh where is someone to talk to when I need them?