Entry One
Dear Diary
I'm not so sure about this whole thing. It's so weird to be in an evil law firm that evil people turned over to the good guys. It's so big and I keep getting lost. The lab is giganamous and I have no clue what's going on most of the time and I'm in charge. Knoxie seems sweet but he could be evil too since it still is Wolfram & Hart even though it got a facelift.
Well they couldn't leave all those zombie lawyers and other things lying around I suppose. It's a good thing we have Lorne so we can weed out the most evil. Who knows maybe we could use the resources and help poor Cordy who's stuck in a coma. I guess that is a perk of being here since the resources are utterly amazing.
Who knows if this will work out but I guess we gotta try because of all the resources we didn't have before and now do. It's just so strange that I'm in charge of a whole department me the boss the one that people come to. I'm not sure how I feel about that since this is so overwhelming.
Entry Two
Dear Diary
Talk about strange Angel opened the mail and out popped an amulet and Spike an old pal of Angel's well sort of but not really but in a strange way they are kinda like family. He's like Spike's grandfather. Angel failed to mention some stuff well I guess it's like sibling rivalry what with them being in love with the same girl.
I don't know what I can do but I'm gonna try and help him. It must be awful to be trapped in this in between state. I sense that he's changed after all he did get his soul back and not in a cursed way so that means well that's really none of my business. I still think he's here for some reason, some destiny to fulfill.
Entry Three
Dear Diary
Well this kinda sucks we have to sneak around to have private conversations and some poor girl got attacked by a werewolf. Not to mention the fact that some bad people tried to eat her. That is just too gross. There are just some things you shouldn't eat and that would be one of them.
We finally got to see Angel's place and it's got a great view. It was nice to just hang out and have some normal time since it's been really crazy around here. I still don't know what to make of all of this what with our very own spook popping in and out and being in a law firm that's evil.
I wonder if the evil will soak into us and infect us like a virus. I do wonder why they just decided to hand the place over to us like this. I don't really trust that Eve talk about irony when it comes to her name. I do know that I want to help Spike.
Angel is stuck in the past regarding his feelings towards him but I sense goodness about him and after all he was with a Slayer so he can't be all bad right. Well I'm tired so I guess I'll try to catch some sleep which is so hard to do these days.
Entry Four
Dear Diary
Well this has been one hell of a day. I thought it would never end and I still haven't helped Spike but at least we found out about that creepy Reaper psycho that was pulling on Spike. He totally proved that he was worth saving I mean he saved my life instead of becoming solid again. Sure he may have had a slight moment of hesitation but who wouldn't since he's pretty much in the same situation as he was before.
Ok I've been spending money left and right but aren't these people whoever they are really rich so who cares if I spend some money especially when it will help someone. I am determined to keep trying because I feel that I need to do this. There is just something about him not that I'm falling for him or anything I can just appreciate that he's an interesting and unique guy.
Maybe that is why Angel is so grumbly about him but now he has to realize that this man has changed just like he changed. People can change even vampires and I mean he did go after the soul on his own instead of being cursed and all so that should say something.
I'm just babbling when I should be working or I should really be getting some sleep but I'm not sure if I can sleep since that Reaper was so creepy and now he's in storage although I know he can't get out I can't help but think what if he does. I mean this guy was into some serious black magicks which means it's possible. I should stop now because I'm freaking myself out and I should be doing something besides babbling on like an idiot.
Entry Five
Dear Diary
I've decided to go out for drinks with Knox. He's sweet and I am in a desperate need of a night out. There haven't been many of them. It's just that I've been so busy trying to help Spike. I can see that he's destined for great things but of course it would help if he were solid again. Maybe I'll come up with something else to help him. I just need to give my brain a rest and start fresh tomorrow.
Entry Six
Dear Diary
Well I'm not sure about Knox. I think it's because he's been at Wolfram & Hart too long but there's something about him that I can't quite put my finger on that's telling me not to go out with him again. He's kinda a disappointment since there have been screwups that I end up having to redo. Well it's great to be the boss of my very own department although it does have its drawbacks.
The one thing I am certain of at this point is the only ones I can totally trust without a doubt are Angel, Wesley, Charles, Lorne, and Spike. I know I haven't known Spike long but the fact that he saved my life when he could have been solid again says a lot about his character.
I wish Cordy was around so we could go out for a girl's night. I haven't visited as often as I should have mainly because I've been too busy but I will. I'll just fill her in on what's going on because it's possible that she can hear me talking and maybe in some small way it might end up helping.
Entry Seven
Dear Diary
It seems lately that all of our lives are consumed with work. It's like a balancing act on what should get done and not doing so much good that we put the place out of business. It's like we need to add a dash of evil in order to do good. I do at times wonder if we made the right choice.
Would they just let us walk out of here if one day we all decided to leave. I'm hoping that the good outweighs the bad. The world has to have a balance of the two since you can't have one without the other but of course I want good to be on the heavier end.
Entry Eight
Dear Diary
Well that was interesting. I went out for drinks with Harmony. For a soulless vampire she's quite nice. Ok I didn't like getting bonked on the head and all but that got all straightened out. I actually admire her for going off human blood since that must be awfully hard but she's doing it. I do feel bad about that poor man that got killed. Jealousy can be quite deadly.
I went to see Cordy and her condition is the same. She's getting the best care so maybe one of these days we'll get good news. It's been such a long time but people have woken up after being in a coma for years. Wes is really looking good these days. I've been trying to give signals but he isn't getting it.
Entry Nine
Dear Diary
I'm glad that Spike was made solid again. I can tell that he's a good man. I know Angel would wince if I said this but in some ways they are a lot alike. That Slayer was really scary and I didn't even face her. I wonder if she is beyond help. I can sympathize since I lived through a hell of my own.That Andrew guy was interesting but I don't like the fact that he double crossed us.
That girl needs some serious help the fact that she cut off Spike's hands among other things is proof of that. With our resources we could have found her a hospital that could try to help her. So that girl with the goofy name has made her feelings perfectly clear. I wonder if Willow feels the same way. I really liked her although she thought I was hitting on her. I've never figured out why she thought that.
Entry Ten
Dear Diary
We got the best news ever. I haven't written in here for a while but a really good thing has happened. Cordy has finally woken up. She was beautiful as always. It was like she had a glow about her. I guess the coma agreed with her. We all went down for a drink but Cordy and Angel never showed up. I guess they wanted some alone time. Can't blame them for that.
It was quite a day with Angel nearly dying and all and to think it was an evil Texan. That just ain't right. Wesley was so amazing doing that spell to remove the tattoos. I have to admit that was a pretty clever way to hide. Well I'm sure the Senior Partners aren't too happy with him right now. I wonder what they look like? Are they even human? I'm guessing I probably don't want to ever see 'em.
Entry Eleven
Dear Diary
Oh this is too horrible for words. Cordy's gone she died and as a favor the Powers gave her a day to say goodbye. I came in and expected to see her with Angel but he was sitting there at his desk looking absolutely heart broken. He called us in and told us.
My heart felt like it fell to the ground. This is so terrible she was so young and full of life. I mean couldn't that little bit of demon in her have saved her. Angel is just throwing himself into his work to try to ease the ace but it just breaks my heart since they had such moira.
Entry Twelve
Dear Diary
Well this is interesting Angel has been turned into a puppet and he is so adorable. He'll be back to normal soon and maybe he'll finally give Nina a shot since he now knows she has feelings for him. Some guys can be so clueless Wesley included. It felt good to save those kids. I know that Cordy's looking down at us and is happy at the good thing we did.
I just know that she's an angel all in white and glowing with wings. She was a special person and I will miss her and I know she was cheering me on when I made my move with Wesley. Well he was absolutely clueless so I kissed him and it was magical. I just know that this is the start of something special.
Entry Thirteen
Dear Diary
I am so happy that I finally opened my eyes and realized what an amazing man Wesley is. I'll always love Charles but it just couldn't work especially after what happened but no unhappy thoughts for I am the happiest I have been in for I don't know how long.
Wesley is such a great kisser. I'm actually getting a social life back. We had a picnic and I think he's planning a surprise for our first official date. This is all so exciting that I feel like singing. I don't ever want this feeling to end.